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Sex Blogging and Writing for the Drawer (Ellie Lumpesse)
Sep 24th, 2008 by Viviane
. . . If anonymous blogging is already writing for the drawer and this blog is a space for my most personal and difficult thoughts, then where do I write down the things that I can’t even say here? One solution is personal friendships. I have a friend that frequently sends me emails with pieces of writing and a subject line like, “I can’t blog this”. Sometimes he is correct. For social reasons or political ones or just “good taste”, he really can’t. Sometimes I convince him that he is wrong because I know his subject line is a challenge to both of us, of course he “can” blog it, but will he?
Me? I don’t even commit these dirtiest of thoughts to words in a publishable way. I may talk about them with friends or even allude to them on Twitter but the simple act of stringing words into sentences and sentences into paragraphs seems very risky and final to me. If I write and I don’t publish, I am admitting that the thoughts are unpublishable. And if I don’t publish the unpublishable, what am I doing here?
Well I’m slowly learning that most of the things I am worried about posting are really no big deal. At worse a couple of people stop reading, but if it is that controversial you will probably pick up twice the number that left in new readers.
It all stems from the fact that we bloggers are self involved and tend to think that the things we think are a big deal other people will think are a big deal too.
Fuck it. More than that revel in it. I can’t wait to post some shocking stories.