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Because I am a passionate belletrist who often prefers the company of books to people, I routinely look at the titles as if evaluating the rare treasures of a scriptorium. The attraction for this asceticism began at an early age, though certainly by 16, when I was introduced to the writings of the Marquis de Sade, Rimbaud and Huysmans, three eminent degenerates.

Based on this initiation, I gladly embraced drink, dissipation and decadence. For years, I permitted myself to be in thrall to unsuitable persons as long as my proclivities were easily gratified. A life of gilded aimlessness defined me perfectly.

A recent role model was the charismatic Yoshi Kawamura, one-time luminary of Tokyo’s sadomasochistic scene. The incomparable roué inspired a private party I hosted for Mrs. Evans, my married British lover. What marked the occasion? It was time to celebrate two months of delicious hedonism, though any excuse was valid.

I’ve always enjoyed an irresistible cocktail of voyeurism and infidelity. Yet it’s not enough to simply misbehave; a certain intense edginess naturally enhances life. For instance, I ordered Mrs. Evans to appear at my apartment near Yebisu Garden Place by 9 p.m., wearing only a Bedford leather mid-thigh car coat and a pair of black satin d’Orsay four-inch stiletto sandals with double crossing ankle-straps.

My lover demonstrated good grace, didn’t ask sassy questions, and only exposed her impeccable ass once or twice to pedestrians as she maneuvered brazenly in-and-out of her taxi. A classic MILF, Mrs. Evans looked sensational for age 40.

After ascending by elevator to my sixth floor apartment, the connoisseur of cock obediently handed me her leather car coat. I kissed Mrs. Evans passionately, and nodded toward an overstuff chair by two windows offering splendid views of the splashy Tokyo nightscape. She acquiesced with her cool, carefree style and sat down, wearing only her fashionable shoes.

With a never diminishing arousal, I readily watched two masculine Japanese rent-boys alternate between filling her pretty mouth with firm cock and stimulating her excited clitoris, while numerous condoms lay ready for use in a Versace ashtray nearby. Mrs. Evans was impossibly sexy.

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24 Kaikan

by Holiday on 07/14/2007

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Typhoon Man-yi hit Okinawa Friday, and may cross Tokyo Bay early Sunday. Many people here stocked up on basic supplies for the impending storm. I reacted to this news by cruising a gay sauna late yesterday afternoon in Shinjuku.

Known as 24 Kaikan, the sauna is in a low-key neighborhood, not far from Takashimaya Times Square, on the east side of the Shinjuku Station in Tokyo, the nation’s busiest commuter station.

My sense of direction in any Tokyo neighborhood is not keen, so I was easily lost. Yet I was sensible and asked a policeman for directions to the gay sauna; not something I’d ever consider in the U.S. Regardless of language barriers, Japanese officials like policemen and train conductors are culturally bound to be of service.

“First traffic light, go right,” the young policeman said, in that quaint, broken-English which can never quite pronounce the letter l. “Next traffic light, go right. Very famous place.”

On my way, I passed the modest Shinjuku Park, where gaijin prostitutes – typically Korean and Filipinos, tried to score with weak-willed salarymen on their way to the after hour bars; and low-life drug dealers offered an overpriced escape for males not interested in Asian pussy. Two policemen stood nearby as symbols of propriety, yet they did nothing to spoil these scenes.

A block away, I found 24 Kaikan, with the entrance on the second floor of a seven story red brick building. Like anywhere in the Far East, one must remove shoes upon entrance to a private setting, even a male whorehouse. In contrast to this classy etiquette, there were vivid posters on the walls of the lobby, depicting attractive young cum-guzzlers, sucking the thick, swollen cocks of slightly older, butch Japanese men.

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So far, I have bounced through life like a pinball, occasionally succumbing to uncontrollable debauchery and giving little thought to the future. Yet there are specific people without which my life would be hideously incomplete.

When caroling the praises of a maestro of cock, a lover who is par excellence, a pure artist in the bedroom, adjectives can be flatter than a cartoon cat hitting a wall.

“Glorious” is a term so chronically overused in conjunction with sex that it is in danger of being comprehensively devalued. It should be rationed scrupulously, reserved for the truly sublime rather than being squandered on the merely remarkable. However, there should be no hesitation in using the “G” word for a fitting recipient, and such a person is K.

No man has fucked me so superbly and as exhaustively as K. He always did so while whispering to me in a voice that was steeped as deep in sex as the human voice can go without drowning.

And yet some days I am drowning without his caress, his kiss, his embrace, his intoxicating possession of my body.

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K.: Hello, my dearest man. How are you?

Holiday: Good. Very good, now.

K.: I miss you a lot.

Holiday: Well, I miss you equally. I never thought I’d say this about another man … but, it’s the truth.

K.: I’m really glad knowing that.

Holiday: I love looking at your cock photos.

K.: I saw your sexy image today, and wish I could be with you now. I want to hold you tight, and kiss you all over.

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I started out on burgundy
But soon hit the harder stuff,
Everybody said they’d stand behind me
When the game got rough,
But the joke was on me
There was nobody even there to call my bluff.
- Bob Dylan
Just Like Tom Thumb’s Blues

Since adolescence, I’ve posed as an easy cynic – the obvious refuge of a romantic. While I searched for my great love – the woman who completed me, no one was going to cause any hurt. My mask was solid as I searched for her in St. Louis, Chicago, New York, Manama, Dubai, Athens, Rome, Paris, Wurzburg, Munich, Salzburg, Dublin, Edinburgh, London, and Cambridge.

Of course I have fallen in love before, but then there was Darcy and I no longer had a curriculum vitae worth a damn.

There is that crystal-clear moment when time stops and we realize everything up to this point has been shabby pretense; a third-rate existence, a poor imitation of life.

I went mad for Darcy – a married woman, with children. It still makes no sense, yet I’m no longer a prisoner of reason. Even in bright sunlight, night rolls through my eyes.

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My darling Darcy, I started this email four hours ago. Since then I’ve been completely and frustratingly prevented from writing you.

Last evening I was so hot and so hard when I arrived home – you know what I expected … a sizzling account of your fuck-date with Jordan. You know I love it when you are so verbally explicit with another man – besides your husband … about sucking his cock, about offering him your cunt, even letting him fuck your tight ass. You know what this does to me.

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Last month I took the five hour flight from Tokyo-to-Bangkok and behaved as if I’d had left my past behind on a different planet. At the beginning of the year, I tried to be an upstanding citizen and this led to the hallucination that I could be respectable again.

To be Irishly eloquent, what fucking nonsense.

I can’t forget that I’ve been a habitué of brothels and gay baths, a neglectful husband and father, and that I’m still given to rejoicing in the delights of debauchery with either sex. I love to fuck a woman with the same enthusiasm that I offer my tight, white ass to a certain well-hung black man.

And yes, I can never deny my arousal over being cucked by the woman I love – who I imagine is now lying in a pile of cock somewhere.
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My overpriced taxi arrived at the Presidential Solitaire just past midnight. Located near
Sukhumvit Road, the four-star hotel is popular among expatriates interested in a world of pure desire-on-a-budget. On the way to my sixth floor suite, I shared the elevator with a lecherous, middle-aged Brit and his Bangkok girlfriend. The Thai prostitute was no more than 18, a fawn-like beauty, all legs and pouting innocence.

The young woman inspired instant appreciation just below my waist.

“Listen, mate,” the Brit said, “this isn’t what you think. I don’t pay for me shags.”

This Humbert Humbert spoke with a familiar Finchley cadence that revealed his North London background. Once I had a friend from that part of Barnet Borough.

“Your companion is gorgeous,” I replied. “You’re a lucky Jim.”

The vacuous, over-the-hill degenerate was a thin, gangling sort with deep-set faded blue eyes and tufty gray hair. He had a facial expression pitched somewhere between blank inscrutability and terminal ennui.

We all departed the elevator at the sixth floor.

“Join us for a drink after your luggage arrives,” he insisted in a voice that oozed bonhomie. “We’ll be in room 612, waiting just for you.”

As for the chance encounter with fellow renegades from propriety, I knew meat and drink when I saw it. Immediacy of impact is always an important value for me, and I’ve sought it out in experiences from all periods of my life. So, my appetite for hedonism led me straight for the soiree in less than 10 minutes. Of course, it was quite late and I needed another escapade like Paula Abdul needed another prescription.

Jim answered the door after the first knock. He wore a loose-fitting open white terrycloth robe without the benefit of clothing, and held a full whiskey glass in his left hand. His ample cock was too impatient to ignore. None of this seemed unusual.

“Welcome to Bangkok,” Jim said.

As Jim beckoned me inside the elegant suite, his young female companion stepped from obscure shadow into obvious light. The golden-skinned Oriental was breathtakingly nude.

“You’re a Yank, but not a prude – right?” Jim asked.
“Jesus will punish you,” I replied, “but I’ll gladly stay.”

Jim started to pour me a whiskey.

“Do you like it straight?” he asked.
“I’m not strictly straight,” I replied, “but a CC and 7 is my favorite mix.”

As my host prepared some refreshment, the Thai girl approached audaciously, put one arm around me, and started to unbutton my dark blue Oxford-cloth shirt. She was captivating and I couldn’t keep my hands off her stunning ass.

“Call her Eve, it works for me,” Jim said nonchalantly. “And what about you? What shall we call you?”
“Holiday.”
“Like Doc Holiday?”
“One and the same.”

Jim handed me the whiskey mixed to order as Eve dropped to her knees and unzipped my jeans.

“Did you fly straight from the States?” he asked
“I don’t live in America. Tokyo is home for now.”
“You speak Japanese?”
“Hai. Genki desu ka?”

Eve retrieved my smooth shaven cock from my pants and initiated a long, lingering blow job. For a young woman, she was damn good. I wanted to ask how she acquired her exquisite skill, but some people are born cocksuckers.

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cowboy Cowboy Lover anthology
For those of you who enjoy and crave the writing of longtime Carnival contributor Clayton Holiday and blog friend Rachel Kramer Bussel, you’ll be pleased to know their stories will be published in Cowboy Lover – Erotic Stories of the Wild West , an anthology co-edited by Cecilia Tan and Lori Perkins. It’ll be published in late April by Thunder’s Mouth Press book.

Clayton’s story, “Cowboy Cocksucker” reminisces about the well-hung, married cowboy he used to blow after hours in the darkroom. (“In the intimacy of the darkroom, Slim drops his tight, boot-cut Wrangler jeans to his Tony Lama snakeskin’s, and seductively pulls down his skimpy black jockstrap. Even in darkness, his cock is breath-taking in its size and shape. He sits on the counter so I may go down on him easily. “)

Rachel says her story, “Reverse Cowgirl” is about “a New York woman who visits her friend’s brother on his ranch and has to acclimate to country life, and they do this dance of disinterest all summer even though they’re really hot for each other until they finally wind up getting it on (yes, in the reverse cowgirl position) right before she heads back home.”

Table of Contents:
The View From Where I’m Standing, August MacGregor
The Magnificent Threesome, Elspeth Potter
The Unattainable, Livia Llewellyn
Gentling, Shanna Germain
Hard Lessons, Teresa Noelle Roberts
When the Rancher Needs a Loan, Andrea Dale
Pistol Packin’ Mamas, David Shaw
Angel to a Cowboy, Laney Cairo
Ace In the Hole, M. ChristianA
Dieing Breed, Rakelle Valencia
Two Visions, Connie Wilkins
The Branding of Charlotte Babington, Anna Black
Celestial, Stephen Dedman
Cowboy Cocksucker, Clayton Holliday (sic)
Reverse Cowgirl, Rachel Kramer Bussell
The Stake, Lee Crittenden
The Barning, LUCypher

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Dear Holiday,

I want my husband sitting beside me, talking to me softly, encouraging me, while his best friend fucks me. Maybe I will hold my husband’s hand, even have him kiss me gently. Does this make sense?

I also have a fantasy of Penn replacing Todd for a while, the two men talking, using crude language together, however, Penn being gentle and encouraging to me.

Perhaps Todd would want me to suck his cock at this time too, to keep him hard.

Then I can imagine Penn pulling out and getting me off the bed, onto the floor to position me on hands and knees, head resting on my arms on the bed. He would take pains to get me properly positioned, breasts dangling for Todd to use, and get my bottom up and ready, legs spread for Todd. Then he would invite Todd to fuck me doggy-style.

Of course, this would be a harder, deeper fuck. So Penn would sit on the floor beside me and talk to me, encourage me, massage my breasts gently when Todd wasn’t playing with them. Penn could also reach up into my pussy and stimulate my clit while Todd fucks me. I can imagine a hard, deep fuck, Todd’s thick cock stretching my wet cunt.

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The month-long hiatus is over for now, provoked by another substantial change of address. I have taken Bruce Chatwin as a role model too seriously, and my life as a nomad is veering out of control. For the past three summers, I have moved from country-to-country and across entire continents.

Last year I was in Europe, no more than an hour or so from the North Sea. The year before, I was in the Middle East with a swank villa on the Arabian Gulf. Now I’m in the Orient, with the Pacific Ocean at my doorstep.

I’m a long, long way from St. Louis – home of T.S. Eliot, Miles Davis, Chuck Berry and Ted Drewe’s famous ice cream.

Years ago I only meant to leave home long enough to see the Rocky Mountains and work briefly as a hand on a Montana cattle ranch. Somehow life has taken me on an odyssey I never imagined.

Of course on my 11-hour non-stop flight from London to the Far East, I looked for evidence of genuine sexual misbehavior among the passengers – at least one man fiddling with his cock, another fumbling with a newly acquainted female. I do this routinely because I am a degenerate and perhaps I am damaged in some way.

I’m always disappointed by people who shy away from sizzling intimacy – the kind that frees us immediately from the sexual loneliness of our stale, daily roles, an intimacy that is immediate and passionate, mischievous and cerebral, intense and captivating.

Instead, I admire people who strive to find this connection with others, who create the circumstances of gratifying drama, revel in the stark lust, bestow the gift of desirable flesh, and are not afraid to accept the melancholy tenderness after the euphoria dissipates.

Most passengers on my flight wore the generic sleep blinders provided by British Air, and appeared immobilized like victims of a 1960s Japanese horror film.

My thoughts turned instantly to Dior, the woman I am connected to like no other person in the world. I love her profoundly and missed her dreadfully. My flight really should have diverted to another country, on another continent. I belong with her, and only cheat myself of valuable moments and experiences by postponing certain crucial decisions.

Dior does not shy away from dangerous intimacy, and that’s one of her loveable qualities (and there are numerous). Yet she is discriminating in her in choice of liaisons. I know … because she shares all details about her other lovers with me – her sexual infatuations, as I call them. The lucky man, when the intimacy happens, is the beneficiary of her lust – but not her love.

I am immediately aroused by Dior’s sexual adventures. Her faithfulness to me is always emotional, and this defines our relationship.

Before I landed, I knew it was only be a matter of time before Dior indulged herself with another lover – someone to help pass the days until I became settled, again.

Of course I was completely fevered by the idea. It’s the way I’m wired. The details of Dior’s seduction of another man always send me off the charts.

I knew my love would not disappoint me.

The Holiday Life

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Dear Ryan:

Although we have never met, I really owe you my most genuine thanks.

For the past six months, I have been involved with your former lover, Brigit. This has been the most wonderful period I can ever remember.

Like you, our relationship extends beyond the usual phone calls, text messages, e-mails, IMs, and thoroughly debauched cybersex.

I spent a lot of time with Brigit at the Fitzwilliam Hotel in Dublin this past March.

As you know firsthand, Brigit is an exquisite cocksucker. What man wouldn’t crave her oral talent? You know what I mean.

How can I begin to praise her first-rate cunt? She’s in a league all her own. Don’t you agree?

My cock simply could not get enough of Brigit’s hot, wet charms. I felt so passionate being inside her that I fucked Brigit for hours – without let up. In fact, I’m afraid I wore the poor girl out, and made her cunt quite sore.

Brigit’s femininity and sensual aptitude was simply heavenly. I took her from behind again and again, including her wonderfully tight ass.

Brigit has told me many times of how she performed fellatio on you – even in a car … and in a nearby Dublin neighborhood, no less. Of course I know all about how you fucked her – repeatedly.

While your technique was like an elegant backstroke in a shot glass, I want to thank you for making Brigit realize just how desirable she is to a man.

Thanks in part to you, she is wonderfully passionate and genuinely uninhibited, a first-class prize – if you ask me.

I hope you don’t mind this unorthodox communiqué, but you really did us both a lovely favor.

Best regards,
Holiday

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We’ll see if Naked Thoughts will post the brazen comments I submitted to his blog about the two of us sucking his cock.

In a way, I can’t believe I was … we were … so brazen. But his cock does make me so hot. The fact that you check him out every day makes me very hot.

We are trouble; with a license to behave as we wish, and no restraints.

I do want to taste you … your lips, your nipples; smell the perfume along your neck, fondle your breasts lovingly, feel your soft, feminine stomach, your hips and, oh, my God, your ass.

I want to worship your ass completely. I want to go down on my knees and bury my tongue in your anus. I want you to bend over so I can explore your ass with my tongue, my mouth and my hot, hard cock.

I want to taste and smell everything about you. I want to possess you completely. I want my cock in your mouth, in your wet cunt, in your tight ass. I want you moaning like a mad woman.

You are married to someone else. I am married to someone else. This shouldn’t be happening.

But, it is happening. And I’m not prepared to stop and behave with decency. I don’t want you to ever depart my life. On whatever terms I can have you, I accept the conditions and the frustration. I can’t go back. It’s all nonsense.

A door opened and I entered another room; too late to pretend amnesia.

You like?

Holiday

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Oh, my God. White heat indeed. Jesus Christ … you are unbelievable.

Much as I once wrote you from my cunt… you wrote from your cock. And your heart — although little visual evidence is displayed in the post. But I know it’s there … you can say the *thing* or not. It makes no difference. It matters little, it’s a simple issue of semantics … I’m blown away.

Your passion excites me to new levels of frenzy. I want to say be bold. He knows you commented there. I know and you know. If he publishes the comment, everyone will know.

Minx

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Earlier this week, I modified my password for this blog in the interest of protecting relevant privacy.

This is both sensible and advisable in a world of increasing identity theft and other meddlesome intrusions, especially as practiced by government agencies in First World democracies.

Nineteen-Eighty Four, George Orwell’s dystopian satire, is dreadfully precise.

Despite some world-weary cynicism, imagine the shock and disgust of discovering my newly modified password had been quickly hacked. What was intended to bolster security, only served the opposite purpose.

The genuine disgust was in realizing the hacker had accessed my template and posted exact html codes for some nauseating pornography among my links.

The purpose of this blog is to explore consensual sex among educated adults, and the bias certainly favors bisexuality and wifesharing. These lifestyle issues are frequently rendered through erotica.

I stand by my last submission, Father Knows Best and its parody of Nabokov, which focused on the seduction of a Roman Catholic priest by a married Jewish woman.

The responsibility of artists, and writers top the list in my estimation, is to offer insights and empathy about the human condition. No mob is more dangerous than the moralistic mob, and so freedom of speech is indispensable.

However, even in a world of elastic scruples, there is no place for material that demeans any human. This doesn’t require textbook definitions; every intelligent person must agree there can be no justification for children and animals as sex objects.

Of course there is simply no justification for any behavior that is degrading and humiliating to others.

It’s embarrassing to state the obvious, yet this sort of clarification can never hurt.

Blogspot.com has sorted, at least temporarily, the breach to my blog security. Nevertheless, it was extremely disconcerting to be locked out of the house while watching an intruder exploit my contents.

O, the blogger behind the excellently written Eros, Logos, dispatched an email to many writers about this earlier today. It is well your consideration:

“I’m writing every blogger I know about a certain problem. A number of blogs and their authors are under attack.

So far the blogs in question have been sex blogs hosted on Blogger. There appears to be a weakness in Blogger’s security system.

In the last two days I have heard from two separate bloggers whose accounts were hacked. In one case the blog was replaced with links to sites featuring child pornography andbestiality.

In yet a third case, a sex blogger’s URL was sent to her boss, and the blogger in question received emails threatening to reveal her personal information to others.

In the two cases of hacking that I have heard of, both bloggers had changed their passwords recently. The only other commonality (as far as I know) appears to be that both write sex blogs, and both are hosted on blogger – these blogs don’t even link each other.

There seems to be some reason to suspect that the attacks are religiously motivated.I’m writing to warn people, and to solicit ideas that any may have to prevent this.

My current suggestion: forward this email or its content to anyone you know who could be at risk. Perhaps we could set up a blog to post updates and exchange information about techniques for protecting our anonymity.

One obvious move is to not login to your blog from a work server, but this is not practical for everyone.I am sending this email to those of you I know in the blogging community, but individually, so that our email addresses remain private. So it’s a form letter – my apologies.”

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This MSN dialogue occurred during a recent business trip to Paris:

[Mrs. Holiday]: Imagining your hands all over my tits makes me wet. Thinking of the pleasurable ways your tongue works on my clit, makes me wet. My nipples are hard right now. What can we do to get your cock up????

[Holiday]: I like the summer, when you lay down in such a way that I can lap your pussy with my tongue. My cock is up. It’s always up for you. A very serious sign of respect.

[Mrs. Holiday]: Whip out your cock.

[Holiday]: Right now?

[Mrs. Holiday]: Let’s massage it. I guess you will just have to type with your right hand and let your fingers do the cock walking with your left hand. So follow my directions to the letter.

First, imagine that you are at your office desk, wearing an expensive business suit. The night before you were forced to sit in a chair and watch me being fucked repeatedly by a man with a huge cock.

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I recently e-mailed my wife at work with a few suggestions for some lewd games. She responded just as I hoped.

# 1: I dare you to be with me in a motel where the room window opens on a parking lot at street level. It’s late afternoon, and I go down on you. There are no lights on but the window curtains are open. First a young maid watches. A few minutes later a big burly biker does also – while exposing himself. You love being an exhibitionist, and practically pull my face inside you.

“Yes, yes, yes.”

#2: I dare you to let me arrange for your lover to meet us somewhere. After small talk me, you and your lover get in our car – with you and your boyfriend in the back seat. While I drive around town, you take off your blouse and 44c bra and give him a blow job. I must keep my eyes on the road and can never look back at you.

“Sounds perfect to me.”

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In the American culture, if we say: “Dutch treat,” this implies we’ll go out together but each person will pay his own share.

Things are different in the Western European culture. These days, “Dutch treat,” suggests something altogether different.

According to Jon Henley in today’s The Guardian, the Netherlands is taking reality television to a new level. Whether the standard is high or low depends entirely on individual standards.

Starting October 10, late-night TV hosts will consume drugs and engage in sex acts on air, then discuss their experiences afterwards. (more…)

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I don’t think my wife was absent more than two days when I was possessed by a serious bisexual fever. I needed some low-down, male-to-male experience. So much for my moral compass.

All I can say in my defense is that I am weak. And, as everyone knows, men are the weaker sex.

It wasn’t so long ago that Yahoo had the best personal ads around. It seemed unbelievably easy to make a connection through this venue. And it was free.

Some times when you’re on the prowl for debauchery, it goes nowhere. People are just jerking off and there are no genuine intentions. Other times, you hit payday and plans for a rendezvous accelerate faster than a BMW on the Frankfurt autobahn.

What I encountered was a dream scenario: two gay men interested in a candidate for a threesome. I didn’t waste time.

What heightened the sense of fever is that the gay couple resided in my small community. For instance: did I know them? Had we ever encountered one another before? (more…)

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