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Rush (The Garden)
Sep 5th, 2008 by Viviane
. . .Fear and terror are two completely different things. I learned that that day. Fear is hot, fear, to me, is getting fucked while there’s a rope tied around my throat, or being told that if I don’t do what I’m told, when I’m told, that my top is going to rip out a toenail with a pair of pliers. Fear is hot, and a little intimidating, and uncertain. But terror, for me, is believing in every fiber of my being that I am going to die, in that really horrible this-is-not-a-drill kind of way.
The people that are debating whether or not waterboarding is torture or not have clearly never been waterboarded. It’s torture. Pure and simple. I was convinced that I was going to die. I’m told that it’s done to create the illusion of drowning, I disagree. There is no illusion; I was drowning and nothing can convince me otherwise. I recognize that what I did was very tame compared to whats going on in some parts of the world. But what I did was enough to get me thinking. Because right now, I am of the opinion that the illusion lies only within in the theory of waterboarding, and only in the theory. In reality, there is no illusion. You are drowning.